What I’ve Been Up To

For exactly a month I have not posted anything on my blog once again. I feel ashamed, when thinking about how much of my time I put into it in contrast to now. I claim to love this. Am I even allowed to say I love this whole experience while neglecting my blog the way I do? It’s not even on purpose, I swear. 

This post, What I’ve Been Up To, is not even being written in the usual environment. I am in bed, it is late and I am typing the words on my phone. In a way, this is my late night emotional text message to you. Just chatting, updating you on my life. I might be a little depressed in this one, so if you feel like that will ruin your mood, please read something else. I am also not going to look up any words or idioms, so beware of bad writing. 

What sparked my emotions to be this out of place again was just a little insignificant thing. Somehow, I got hold of the fact that the Bout of Books readathon started today. Bout of Books used to mean something to me. My first readathon was a Bout of Books one. My most beloved ones are, too. How could I have missed this? Already being late a whole day I don’t feel like I can participate this time. It’s just not a good time. I am not in a good state of mind currently. 

At the moment, I am on my way to stop taking my SSRI. After a while they just stopped working and all they did was giving me nasty side effects. So back to being sad and so on. 

Time is running away from me, I cannot get ahold of it. There is never enough time for me to do anything. I am behind on each and every part of my life. 
Nothing is really going well. 

Am I in a reading slump? Maybe. I don’t know what to read next. I am having a hard time deciding on audio books. My Goodreads isn’t even up-to-date, which says a lot considering how much I enjoy the service. The last book I listened to was The Couple Next Door and it was great in my opinion. 

I have had a brief love affair with The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo. I am so deeply and passionately in love with it, you wouldn’t believe it. The second book lead to a case of DNF, so that’s that. Ugh. 

Rambling on some more … 

I am currently seriously ill for the third time on two months and my throat is killing me. But there’s also deadlines at work and university and no real way to take a break. 

This community is amazing and yet unforgiving. Not posting in a while definitely results in a lot less attention and caring from everyone. Es ist einfach so schnelllebig. I don’t know. 

A year ago, all of this started. In May of 2016 I started Nefarious Reader. Maybe I will be motivated enough to write something concerning this, but probably I won’t. 

For now, I don’t know what to say anymore, but I will leave it at that. Thank you for caring. 

I’m In Love With Audio Books Also Known As March Wrap-Up + Quick Rant

Late, and yet here we are again. Since I did read a lot of books in the month of March, I wanted to share my progress with you. Sorry that I have been so inactive lately. It’s all just too much. Anyway … First of all, let’s take a look at my Goodreads Reading Challenge.

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I feel like being that many books ahead of schedule has never happened to me before. So I got that going for me, which is nice.

Next up, what did I actually read?

Read in March

Audio Books (9)

Body, Mind and Soul by Audrey Carlan. Read my review in German for Soul here.

Calendar Girl January & February by Audrey Carlan. After reading and – honestly – loving Body, Mind and Soul, I was looking forward to reading this so much! January was pretty much okay, but starting with February, I was so annoyed and disappointed. It was disgusting. Racist, misogynistic, mean, boring and ignorant. There was no development of anything at all. The only good thing that January offers is Wes and not even he seems to be destined to stay. After finishing February, I started reading the chapter summaries on Bad Books Good Times for the following books in this series. Wasting any more money on this would be so stupid. It made me question my love for the Trinity series, I’m not so sure anymore. Ugh, I don’t even know, what did you think o it? /Rant over

Everything I Never Told You by Celeste Ng

She’s Not There by Joy Fielding

And Then There Were None by Agatha Christie

AchtNacht by Sebastian Fitzek

Not my favorite Fitzek, but pretty much okay. 

Paperbacks And E-Books (3)

Clumsy by Jeffrey Brown

One of the Boys by Daniel Magariel My review can be found here.

Bad Little Girl by Frances Vick Find my review here.

Currently Reading

The Girl in 6E by A.R. Torre

Women in Science: 50 Fearless Pioneers Who Changed the World by Rachel Ignotofsky

Songs of Our Breakup by Jay E. Tria

Wir Kinder vom Bahnhof Zoo by Christiane F.


What did you read in March?
Let me know in the comments of leave me a link to your posts!

Trinity – Tödliche Liebe | ɢ

As I already mentioned on my new page for all my reviews, the ones marked with a ɢ are written in German. So now that you know, have a nice day for now (if you’re not going to stay)! I’m still going to publish reviews in English on here, but I thought that it would be nice to try and write some in my mother tongue as well.

Goodreads | Audrey Carlan | 304 pages | Romance, Erotica, Suspense | Published February 2017

★★★★★

Im Gegenzug für eine ehrliche und faire Review erhielt ich dieses Buch als E-Book auf NetGalley.

An und für sich ging ich davon aus, dass es sich bei diesem Buch nicht um das 3. in einer Serie handelte. Das kam wohl in der Beschreibung nicht wirklich rüber, tja. Klarerweise macht es da Sinn, auch die ersten zwei Bücher dieser Serie zu lesen. Und ich muss sagen, ich bereue nichts! Für dieses Buch auserwählt zu werden war wohl eine glückliche Fügung des Schicksals. Ich hätte wohl nicht gedacht, Trinity so sehr zu mögen.

Spannend, aufregend und dunkel ist der 3. Teil der Trinity-Serie. Im Gegensatz zu den beiden vorhergehenden Büchern ist die Atmosphäre viel gedrückter und angespannter. Mit der Sorgenlosigkeit der Charaktere ist es vorbei. Aber genau das hat es im Endeffekt nicht langweilig wirken lassen.

Da diese Serie in einigen Kreisen wohl von einigen als das neue 50 Shades Of gehandelt wird, habe ich mir Mühe geben, problematische Inhalte zu erkennen. An und für sich wird schnell klar, dass Chase ein Problem damit hat, Kontrolle abzugeben. Er kontrolliert Gillian und ihr Verhalten ständig. Darauf wird er aber von ihr, ihrem Therapeuten und ihren Freundinnen aufmerksam gemacht. Gillian lässt sich das nicht so leicht gefallen. Auf der einen Seite kommt es dann so rüber, dass er im Endeffekt doch alles mit ihr machen kann, was er will, nur weil er reich und gutaussehend ist. Andererseits könnte man wohl streiten, dass sie es einfach doch immer will, weil sie ihn unsterblich liebt. Unabhängig davon wurde die sexuelle Orientierung eines Charakters abhängig von seinem Kleidungsstil und seinem Auftreten angenommen. Nicht cool.

Achtung Spoiler! Das Folgende ist weiß gefärbt, sodass es markiert werden muss, um gelesen werden zu können. Von allen Dingen war es am Ende das Schicksal von Kathleen Bennett, das mich ganz ehrlich zum Weinen gebracht hat. Was ihr zugestoßen ist und wie es ihr sowohl emotional als auch körperlich zu schaffen macht, war einfach zu viel. Zum Glück gibt es aber einen 5. Teil dieser Serie, der sich anscheinend ganz auf Kathleen konzentriert! Ich bin wirklich froh. Und dann hat dieses Buch auch noch 450 Seiten! Was könnte ich mehr wollen? 

Die ersten paar Seiten des Epilogs waren meiner Meinung nach sehr unpassend. Es wird direkt vom tragischen Ende aller Ereignisse zu einer absolut nicht jugendfreien Sexszene geschnitten. Nach dem ganzen Tumult der stattfand, schien es einfach nicht richtig.

Trinity hat mich auf eine sehr positive Art und Weise überrascht. Ich war angetan von der brisanten (sexuellen) Spannung zwischen Chase und Gillian, der besonderen Beziehung zwischen Gillian und ihren Seelenschwestern, aber auch der exzelleten Mischung aus Romance und Suspense, den dunklen Elementen gemischt mit unendlicher Leidenschaft. Von mir ergibt das 5 von 5 Sternen. Deswegen freue ich mich schon sehr auf Calendar Girl und die weiteren, ergänzenden Bücher der Trinity-Serie.

Anmerkung: Wie bereits von Audrey Carlan angemerkt, ist dieses Buch als 18+ gekennzeichnet. Es behandelt Themen wie häusliche Gewalt und Misshandlung. Außerdem kommen explizite Sexszenen vor, sowie eine ordinäre Sprache.

One of the Boys by Daniel Magariel

One of the Boys by Daniel Magariel

Powerful, heartbreaking and yet hopeful.

Goodreads | 176 pages | Fiction, Contemporary

I received this eArc on NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.

The main focus of the book lies on the dynamics of the family. Although the reader does not get to know the names of the main character, the father, the mother or the brother, they are portrayed by their feelings and certain characteristics. At first One of the Boys is misleading the reader, having them search for the evil that destroyed the family, finding it in different places until the true evil reveals itself.

In contrast to their parents, the main character, but also the brother to some extent, changed over the course of the book. Except for the abuse and violence, this is a part that can be elaborated on well. In a way I feel like it is important to highlight their strength and growth that made them endure their situation.

While the parents seem to have been the same all along while only hiding their true motivations, a change in the personality of the boys is clearly visible. While the MC can be observed as truly loyal, naive and immature at the beginning of the book, these character traits have changed in a whole other direction. He adopted some behavior from the father, leaving the father in the dark about the loyalty and plans of the boys. In the end it feels as if the boys is broken, corrupted by everything they had to endure, by carrying the weight of responsibility for themselves and their father at a way too early time.

Even at its short length, this novel manages to create a strong, loyal bond between the reader and the boys. Their struggle creates feelings of discontent and empathy for them. Due to all of these circumstances, this book very deservedly receives 4 out of 5 stars by me.


Have you read One of the Boys? What did you think of it? Be sure to let me know.

Week of No Clutter + Rafflecopter Giveaway!

You might have read my review of Year of No Clutter from a few days ago! In celebration of its publication yet another post will be published by me. As you were able to tell by my overall positive review, I was inspired after reading it. Decluttering and thoughtful consumerism is something that grew dear to my heart within the last year. I myself tried to be more conscious and to downsize.

As I already stated in my review, I was approved for an eARC on NetGalley in exchange for an honest review by Sourcebooks, who were also so kind to send out more information and material for this great book which made this post possible.

Week of No Clutter

It is not that easy, I know. But don’t sweat it! From March 7-14, you can sign-up to get a newsletter each day with tips, advice and videos from Eve Schaub herself in order to be able to conquer your clutter! You can sign up here. I would love to see lots of you get involved!

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Year of No Clutter: A Memoir by Eve Schaub

A pleasant memoir about family, well-being, materialism as well as minimalism and of course everyone’s enemy – clutter! Loved it!

In exchange for an honest review I received this eARC from the publisher on NetGalley. Thank you very much!

I’ve been interested in decluttering and a clutter free lifestyle for quite a while now. Therefore this book immediately caught my attention and I was excited when I was approved for this title. Now let us get into it! Warning: Mild spoilers ahead, as well as mental health stuff. 

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The chapter about the hell room is extremely interesting and her writing is easy and quick to read. It was a nice way to get into the whole subject matter. Throughout reading it, personal stories and problems Eve had to face made it richer in variety.

Taken from the blurb on Goodreads:

Year of No Clutter is a deeply inspiring–and frequently hilarious — examination of why we keep stuff in the first place, and how to let it all go.

I absolutely have to agree with this statement. To be completely honest, at first I wasn’t aware of how serious and well-conceived this book was until I was around one third into it. I was absolutely sure that it would be just like other articles and posts on the internet about this topic, just in a longer version. But I was wrong, this book made me feel something and I could relate to it so much, I felt what Eve must have been feeling in some way or another. And because I was able to relate so much, I wanna share another passage from Year Of No Clutter.

I was afraid. Desperately. Afraid of side effects! Afraid it would make me sick! I pictured my hair falling out in clumps. […] I pictured myself violently ill, and these images circled my non-draining brain endlessly until the only way I could get any respite was to shelve the issue once more in the back storage closet of my mind. Phew.

(Somehow, this is exactly how I felt, although I was not diagnosed with OCD, but something else, and also:)

Today, I am a different person. I take an infinitesimal daily dose of what’s called a selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor (translation: Roto-Rooter for my brain). My husband will be the first one to point out the differences between Even and eversoslightlymedicated Eve.

The book deals with the subject matter of mental health and especially OCD pretty well, in my opinion. Of course I cannot speak for people with this kind of problem, but it is sensitive enough with not any obvious insensitivities and not totally ignorant.

Eve is such a lovely and likable narrator. This memoir and her story are quite unique in my opinion. Her writing and use of language was – at least for me with English not being my native language – sophisticated and exiting, with many words I had never heard before. It somewhat showed some quirkiness of her character I think. Which I mean in the most positive way!

Conclusion

I wasn’t expecting all too much, since I hardly ever read memoirs, but let me tell you I was stunned! Eve has such an empathetic way of telling her stories, I was able to connect and feel like I was a part of that story. It’s definitely a fast read, with some helpful advice along the way. Therefore Year Of No Clutter will receive 4 out of 5 stars.

Bad Little Girl by Frances Vick

Bad Little Girl by Frances Vick

An interesting book I was eager to read once I saw the lovely cover. Sometimes exhausting to read, a little disappointing in the end, but overall it had some good thrills.

To be honest I wanna say right away, most of the characters and their choices were quite annoying to me. It seemed so obvious to make the right choices, but the characters were so busy with themselves and their desires that it was hard for them to react to the situations. That made it exhausting to read, because the reader knew what was going to happen, at least to some extent.

Although Claire as one of the main characters went through an extreme development character-wise, it didn’t change much at all, but it did make her character be the hero in this book (for around 40 pages, until she was being annoying again). In a way I would say that the character’s personalities were created very well by the author in order to fit the narrative.

Overall, I enjoyed the little indecencies, the mystery and the thrill (or what was there of it). However, I would have loved a clearer ending, a bigger punishment, a better solution. Except for that, it is a solid 3 out of 5 stars and I am actually interested in other works by this author.

Bad Little Girl | Psychological Thriller | 325 pages | Published February 2017 | Goodreads

February | Wrap-Up + Haul

February | Wrap-Up + Haul

For the first month in probably ever, I actually stuck to the books I had set out for that month. I nearly only read books from this TBR post for February. In the following short list, I will mention every book from said post and format it whether I have read it or not. If a work was read in February, I will make it bold, if I have at least started or read parts of it, it will be italic and a book I have not even remotely looked at at all, will be crossed out.

Keeping the Distance by Clarisse David 180 pages | ★★★★✰ | My review

The Girls by Emma Cline 11 hours | ★★★✰✰

The Madman’s Tale by John Katzenbach 20 hours  ★✰✰✰✰ | Goodreads review

1Q84 #3 by Haruki Murakami 17 hours ★★★★✰

Bad Little Girl by Frances Vick | 325 pages ★★★✰✰

The Girl in 6E by A. R. Torre 352 pages  | 45 pages done

Songs of Our Breakup by Jay E. Tria 183 pages | 31 pages done

Homegoing by Yaa Gyasi | 305 pages |

Harmless Like You by Rowan Hisayo Buchanan 308 pages |

Human Acts by Han Kang 224 pages |

Lebensgeister by Banana Yoshimoto 160 pages |

The Summer of Chasing Mermaids by Sarah Ockler 416 pages |

Lying Out Loud by Kody Keplinger 368 pages |

Only Ever Yours by Louise O’Neill 400 pages |

A Clash Of Kings by George R. R. Martin 931 pages |

Other Books

Nina is Not Ok by Shappi Khorsandi | 352 pages | ★★★★★ | My review

And Then There Were None by Agatha Christie | 4 hours | 1 hour 30 minutes done

All in all, that makes 960 pages read and around 48 hours I spent listening to audio books.

All The Books I Bought In February

All of the following books were used before I bought them, none were new.

The Secret History

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The Silmarillion

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The Summer Of Chasing Mermaids

Lying Out Loud

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Clumsy

The Big Lie

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Gossip Girl #4: Because I’m Worth it

Gossip Girl #5: I Like It Like That

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How was February for you?

Keeping the Distance by Clarisse David

Keeping the Distance by Clarisse David

Melissa and Lance were so worth it. Keeping the Distance contains a decent high-quality amount of ship-able material. A love story I cannot wait for to be continued.

Some Information

Contemporary, Romance, Young Adult

Published in February 2017

Goodreads | Author’s website

★★★★✰

I received an eARC of this book in exchange for an honest review.

Synopsis from Goodreads

Seventeen-year-old Melissa wants to dye her hair cotton candy pink and focus on her ukulele instead of Physics. But she can’t. As the daughter of a Catholic school principal, living up to her model student image 24/7 is a must. Something’s about to give under all the pressure. She only hopes it isn’t her.

Getting involved with a troublemaking basketball player is the last possible thing she needs…

Lance is used to getting what he wants. With a pretty face he uses to full advantage and his role as co-captain of the basketball team, the easy way is the only way he’s ever known. Until the day he notices the prim Melissa he’s known forever is actually hot and decides to ask her out. He has no idea he’s about to learn the lesson of a lifetime.

Not getting what he wants might exactly be what he needs…

My Thoughts

Adorable, sweet, lovely and even a little heartbreaking. That is what Keeping the Distance is to me. I was immediately drawn into the story and plot of this book. At several different occasions I found myself swooning over Lance, Melissa, or both of them at the same time. Near the end of the book, the author had established a somewhat strong connection to the characters so that it made me feel with them. It never got boring.

Although family and friendship was well portrayed in contrast to some other contemporaries, Cam felt a wee bit flat and not as vivid as she could have been. She is a good friend to Melissa, the reader does see that, but there wasn’t quite enough happening involving her for her to really be the bestest of friends. Hopefully there will be more Cam quality time in the following books. Maybe even some Cam/Hunter or Cam/Jace time. But we’ll see; a girl can still dream though, right? Just believe me, Keeping the Distance contains a decent high-quality amount of ship-able material.

Additionally, the environment that is Iloilo is so fantastic and unique. It does add its part to the story.  You may call it ignorant, but I was unaware of the history of colonization of the Philippines. For a good third of the book I was wondering why the names were not at all what I was expecting and rather sounding Spanish. Until I did some research and read up on it, which makes a whole lot of sense now. So the book also offered knowledge I hadn’t possessed beforehand.

All in all, I am utterly excited for the second book in this series to be published. Clarisse’s writing can be described as sophisticated and lively. Keeping the Distance has everything a swoon-worthy romance novel needs: the amazing couple, the chill friends, this little bit of trouble, the cheesy pick-up lines (in a totally not serious way) and the deeply bonding moments between the two MCs. This series still has so much potential and could wind up to be one of my favorite series.


Have you read it? If so, what did you think of it?

Nina is Not OK by Shappi Khorsandi

Nina is Not OK by Shappi Khorsandi

Let me tell you, this book was a wild, amazing, emotional rollercoaster. I’m going to tell you right away it’s a 5/5 read – I’m speechless. Well, nearly.

In exchange for an honest review I received this eARC from the publisher on NetGalley. Thank you very much!

Nina does not have a drinking problem. She likes a drink, sure. But what 17-year-old doesn’t?

Nina’s mum isn’t so sure. But she’s busy with her new husband and five year old Katie. And Nina’s almost an adult after all.

And if Nina sometimes wakes up with little memory of what happened the night before, then her friends are all too happy to fill in the blanks. Nina’s drunken exploits are the stuff of college legend.

But then one dark Sunday morning, even her friends can’t help piece together Saturday night. All Nina feels is a deep sense of shame, that something very bad has happened to her…

Synopsis taken from Goodreads

Let’s get right into some of the main reasons why I loved this book to bits! Beware: Mild spoilers as well as sexual abuse and alcoholism ahead.

Although Nina is Not OK is a YA Contemporary, at that it was being very serious and mature. Right from the beginning I loved that the book did not mince matters. It was raw, edgy and, well, explicitly sexual. I was not expecting it to be this explicit, considering that Nina is only 17 at that point in the book. I’m not even judging, I simply expected this book to be for a younger audience.

Nina makes you feel something. Her feelings and thoughts and her suffering, but also happiness, are written in a way to make you feel it too. It is intense. Additionally, there is so much happening all the time. The reader is not stuck at one particular point in time, although Nina consistently keeps being reminded of that certain event from the beginning. Because so many aspects of Nina’s life are being visited throughout reading this book, it makes her feel like she is a real human being, a good friend. Her character development is clearly visible and especially at the end, she is obviously changed.

And Nina is not even the only amazing character. Let us briefly talk about Beth and Zoe. Well, you may think now that since this book has one amazing huge important bad-ass main character, the development for the other ones fell flat. But you guessed right: it didn’t. They felt equally real, went through tough stuff and ended up in different places.

Shappi Khorsandi has such an interesting way of writing. It is unexpected and entertaining. She manages to make Nina is Not OK so vivid by being equally plot- and character-driven. It left me speechless on a few occasions, but it made me want to keep reading it forever and ever.