Trinity – Bittersüße Träume von Audrey Carlan | ɢ

Trinity – Bittersüße Träume von Audrey Carlan | ɢ

¡Muy caliente!, wie Maria es wohl gesagt hätte.

Ich habe Trinity – Bittersüße Träume auf NetGalley vom Ullstein Verlag erhalten im Gegenzug für eine ehrliche Review. Bittersüße Träume ist am 14.07.2017 erschienen und ist 450 Seiten lang. Spoilers ahead!

Bittersüße Träume hat mich unglaublich glücklich gemacht. Die ersten drei Bücher habe ich verschlungen und konnte es kaum erwarten, dieses in meine Hände zu bekommen. Die neuen Beziehungen, die aufgebaut wurden, waren sehr gefühlvoll und dennoch nicht vorhersehbar – wo man doch bereits 3 ganze Bücher hinter sich hat, die sich um Liebe und Sex drehen.

Dieses Buch hat erwachsener gewirkt, Themen wie Trauer und deren Aufarbeitung waren die meiste Zeit über ein sehr großer Bestandteil der Geschichte. Das Buch hatte seine verdiente Portion Spannung und Angst, war aber nicht so dramatisch und aufwühlend wie die anderen Bücher. Wie ihr merkt, erwähne ich immer wieder die anderen Bücher: Ich würde nicht unbedingt empfehlen, Bittersüße Träum als erstes Buch dieser Serie zu lesen.

I know my favs are problematic. Ich sehe, dass Elijah teilweise sehr aufdringlich war und sein Verhalten nicht entschuldbar ist. Über diese Themen mache ich mir viele Gedanken. Inwieweit ist es okay, weil Maria damit einverstanden war und wenn es für beide kein Problem war, war sein Verhalten so ungut in manchen Situationen? Falls ihr eine Meinung dazu habt, lasst es mich bitte wissen.

Die ganze Zeit über war dieses Buch für mich 4 Sterne wert, da es mir gut gefallen hat, aber wohl auch weil es bessere Möglichkeiten gibt die Mehrsprachigkeit eines Charakters zum Ausdruck zu bringen. Und es einfach ein Buch ist, das in einer Welt spielt, in der das größte Ziel eines jeden weiblichen Charakters ist, den Mann ihrer Träume zu finden, ihn zu heiraten und dann viele, viele, viele und Unmengen von Babys zu machen.

Weswegen Bittersüße Träume aber für mich schlussendlich doch 5 Sterne verdient, ist der Epilog. Wie nathlos er sich in das Gesamtbild eingefügt hat! Wie bereits der Epilog im dritten Buch der eigentlichen Trilogie hat sich auch dieser 3 Jahre nach den Hauptereignissen des jeweiligen Buchs abgespielt. Dadurch wurde ein Bild der Vollständigkeit vermittelt und diese letzte Szene mit weiteren Details und Ansichtspunkten erweitert.

Audrey Carlan weiß, wie sie Spannung für das nächste Buch erzeugt. Obwohl – und vielleicht gerade weil –  ich mich am allermeisten auf den fünften Band der Trinity-Serie, Brennendes Verlangen, gefreut habe, war ich äußerst positiv überrascht von Bittersüße Träume. Anfangs war alles ein wenig gewöhnungsbedürftig, da man doch bis zu diesem Zeitpunkt alles aus der Perspektive von Gigi wahrgenommen hat. Die Geschichte aus den Augen von Maria erzählt zu bekommen war im Endeffekt aber erfrischend, feurig und spannend.

Der Letzte macht den Mund zu – Michael Buchinger | ɢ

Der Letzte macht den Mund zu – Michael Buchinger | ɢ

Authentisch, zynisch und typisch Michi! *gg*

Der Letzte macht den Mund zu von Michael Buchinger erscheint heute, dem 14.07.2017 im Ullstein Verlag und ist sein erstes Buch. 240 Seiten voller Humor und Hass erwarten euch.

Als Fan der kultigen Videos von Michi Buchinger habe ich mich sehr darauf gefreut, eine Version auf NetGalley vorab zu erhalten – im Austausch für eine ehrliche Review.

Während des Lesens hatte ich die Stimme von Michael im Kopf, da die Schreibweise einfach authentisch war. Es war nichts dabei, was Michael Buchinger wohl so nicht auch in seinen Videos von sich gegeben hätte, was das Buch sehr sympathisch macht. Sein Sarkasmus und sein – wie ein guter Wein – gereifter Humor kommen gut an.

Klarerweise hat es für sehr junge Leute einiges an Lachern zu bieten, aber auch für Erwachsene, die einen Einblick in die Ideen und Interessen jüngerer gewinnen wollen, kann dieses Buch interessant sein. Das Buch lebt wohl zu einem großen Teil davon, dass man die Figur Michi kennt und deren Humor versteht. Dennoch sind seine Stilmittel und Bemerkungen wohl universell gut geeignet, um auch dem ernstesten Menschen ein kleines Kichern zu entlocken. Seine Vergleiche sind wohl die Glanzstücke seiner Pointen sind und das was für mich am meisten herausgestochen ist.

Die einzigen Schwierigkeiten, die ich mit diesem Buch hatte, bestanden darin, dass es nicht besonders viel Neues zu erfahren gab. Michael positioniert sich im Internet und vor allem in seinen Hass-Listen sehr deutlich, weswegen ziemlich alle Themen im Buch keine allzu großen Überraschungen waren.

Was mich am meisten störte (oder was ich sogar hasste), war das letzte Kapitel vor der Danksagung. Nach kurzer Recherche scheint es dieses Kapitel auch in die finale Version geschafft zu haben. Mein Problem damit: es ist fast eins zu eins übernommen von einem Artikel, den Michael Buchinger bereits Ende 2015 für Vice geschrieben hatte. Frech, oder? Ein zusammenfassendes, in-die-Zukunft-blickendes oder von mir aus sogar ein absolut hasserfülltes abschließendes Kapitel hätte vor der Danksagung wohl (für mich) besser gepasst, um das ganze Werk runder erscheinen zu lassen. Daher erhielt es von mir auch nicht alle 5 Sterne, was es sonst wohl bekommen hätte.

Alles in allem ein gutes Buch, angenehm geschrieben und wegen seiner kurzen und prägnanten Kapitel auch unterwegs gut lesbar. Falls ihr ein Problem mit einem ungeliebten Freund schlusszumachen, euch im Dschungel der Selbsthilfelektüre zurechtzufinden, mit Romantik in der Beziehung, Dickpicks, Manieren oder Zucker habt – Michi steht euch mit Rat und Tat und Schmäh zur Seite!

Trinity – Tödliche Liebe | ɢ

As I already mentioned on my new page for all my reviews, the ones marked with a ɢ are written in German. So now that you know, have a nice day for now (if you’re not going to stay)! I’m still going to publish reviews in English on here, but I thought that it would be nice to try and write some in my mother tongue as well.

Goodreads | Audrey Carlan | 304 pages | Romance, Erotica, Suspense | Published February 2017

★★★★★

Im Gegenzug für eine ehrliche und faire Review erhielt ich dieses Buch als E-Book auf NetGalley.

An und für sich ging ich davon aus, dass es sich bei diesem Buch nicht um das 3. in einer Serie handelte. Das kam wohl in der Beschreibung nicht wirklich rüber, tja. Klarerweise macht es da Sinn, auch die ersten zwei Bücher dieser Serie zu lesen. Und ich muss sagen, ich bereue nichts! Für dieses Buch auserwählt zu werden war wohl eine glückliche Fügung des Schicksals. Ich hätte wohl nicht gedacht, Trinity so sehr zu mögen.

Spannend, aufregend und dunkel ist der 3. Teil der Trinity-Serie. Im Gegensatz zu den beiden vorhergehenden Büchern ist die Atmosphäre viel gedrückter und angespannter. Mit der Sorgenlosigkeit der Charaktere ist es vorbei. Aber genau das hat es im Endeffekt nicht langweilig wirken lassen.

Da diese Serie in einigen Kreisen wohl von einigen als das neue 50 Shades Of gehandelt wird, habe ich mir Mühe geben, problematische Inhalte zu erkennen. An und für sich wird schnell klar, dass Chase ein Problem damit hat, Kontrolle abzugeben. Er kontrolliert Gillian und ihr Verhalten ständig. Darauf wird er aber von ihr, ihrem Therapeuten und ihren Freundinnen aufmerksam gemacht. Gillian lässt sich das nicht so leicht gefallen. Auf der einen Seite kommt es dann so rüber, dass er im Endeffekt doch alles mit ihr machen kann, was er will, nur weil er reich und gutaussehend ist. Andererseits könnte man wohl streiten, dass sie es einfach doch immer will, weil sie ihn unsterblich liebt. Unabhängig davon wurde die sexuelle Orientierung eines Charakters abhängig von seinem Kleidungsstil und seinem Auftreten angenommen. Nicht cool.

Achtung Spoiler! Das Folgende ist weiß gefärbt, sodass es markiert werden muss, um gelesen werden zu können. Von allen Dingen war es am Ende das Schicksal von Kathleen Bennett, das mich ganz ehrlich zum Weinen gebracht hat. Was ihr zugestoßen ist und wie es ihr sowohl emotional als auch körperlich zu schaffen macht, war einfach zu viel. Zum Glück gibt es aber einen 5. Teil dieser Serie, der sich anscheinend ganz auf Kathleen konzentriert! Ich bin wirklich froh. Und dann hat dieses Buch auch noch 450 Seiten! Was könnte ich mehr wollen? 

Die ersten paar Seiten des Epilogs waren meiner Meinung nach sehr unpassend. Es wird direkt vom tragischen Ende aller Ereignisse zu einer absolut nicht jugendfreien Sexszene geschnitten. Nach dem ganzen Tumult der stattfand, schien es einfach nicht richtig.

Trinity hat mich auf eine sehr positive Art und Weise überrascht. Ich war angetan von der brisanten (sexuellen) Spannung zwischen Chase und Gillian, der besonderen Beziehung zwischen Gillian und ihren Seelenschwestern, aber auch der exzelleten Mischung aus Romance und Suspense, den dunklen Elementen gemischt mit unendlicher Leidenschaft. Von mir ergibt das 5 von 5 Sternen. Deswegen freue ich mich schon sehr auf Calendar Girl und die weiteren, ergänzenden Bücher der Trinity-Serie.

Anmerkung: Wie bereits von Audrey Carlan angemerkt, ist dieses Buch als 18+ gekennzeichnet. Es behandelt Themen wie häusliche Gewalt und Misshandlung. Außerdem kommen explizite Sexszenen vor, sowie eine ordinäre Sprache.

One of the Boys by Daniel Magariel

One of the Boys by Daniel Magariel

Powerful, heartbreaking and yet hopeful.

Goodreads | 176 pages | Fiction, Contemporary

I received this eArc on NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.

The main focus of the book lies on the dynamics of the family. Although the reader does not get to know the names of the main character, the father, the mother or the brother, they are portrayed by their feelings and certain characteristics. At first One of the Boys is misleading the reader, having them search for the evil that destroyed the family, finding it in different places until the true evil reveals itself.

In contrast to their parents, the main character, but also the brother to some extent, changed over the course of the book. Except for the abuse and violence, this is a part that can be elaborated on well. In a way I feel like it is important to highlight their strength and growth that made them endure their situation.

While the parents seem to have been the same all along while only hiding their true motivations, a change in the personality of the boys is clearly visible. While the MC can be observed as truly loyal, naive and immature at the beginning of the book, these character traits have changed in a whole other direction. He adopted some behavior from the father, leaving the father in the dark about the loyalty and plans of the boys. In the end it feels as if the boys is broken, corrupted by everything they had to endure, by carrying the weight of responsibility for themselves and their father at a way too early time.

Even at its short length, this novel manages to create a strong, loyal bond between the reader and the boys. Their struggle creates feelings of discontent and empathy for them. Due to all of these circumstances, this book very deservedly receives 4 out of 5 stars by me.


Have you read One of the Boys? What did you think of it? Be sure to let me know.

Year of No Clutter: A Memoir by Eve Schaub

A pleasant memoir about family, well-being, materialism as well as minimalism and of course everyone’s enemy – clutter! Loved it!

In exchange for an honest review I received this eARC from the publisher on NetGalley. Thank you very much!

I’ve been interested in decluttering and a clutter free lifestyle for quite a while now. Therefore this book immediately caught my attention and I was excited when I was approved for this title. Now let us get into it! Warning: Mild spoilers ahead, as well as mental health stuff. 

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The chapter about the hell room is extremely interesting and her writing is easy and quick to read. It was a nice way to get into the whole subject matter. Throughout reading it, personal stories and problems Eve had to face made it richer in variety.

Taken from the blurb on Goodreads:

Year of No Clutter is a deeply inspiring–and frequently hilarious — examination of why we keep stuff in the first place, and how to let it all go.

I absolutely have to agree with this statement. To be completely honest, at first I wasn’t aware of how serious and well-conceived this book was until I was around one third into it. I was absolutely sure that it would be just like other articles and posts on the internet about this topic, just in a longer version. But I was wrong, this book made me feel something and I could relate to it so much, I felt what Eve must have been feeling in some way or another. And because I was able to relate so much, I wanna share another passage from Year Of No Clutter.

I was afraid. Desperately. Afraid of side effects! Afraid it would make me sick! I pictured my hair falling out in clumps. […] I pictured myself violently ill, and these images circled my non-draining brain endlessly until the only way I could get any respite was to shelve the issue once more in the back storage closet of my mind. Phew.

(Somehow, this is exactly how I felt, although I was not diagnosed with OCD, but something else, and also:)

Today, I am a different person. I take an infinitesimal daily dose of what’s called a selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor (translation: Roto-Rooter for my brain). My husband will be the first one to point out the differences between Even and eversoslightlymedicated Eve.

The book deals with the subject matter of mental health and especially OCD pretty well, in my opinion. Of course I cannot speak for people with this kind of problem, but it is sensitive enough with not any obvious insensitivities and not totally ignorant.

Eve is such a lovely and likable narrator. This memoir and her story are quite unique in my opinion. Her writing and use of language was – at least for me with English not being my native language – sophisticated and exiting, with many words I had never heard before. It somewhat showed some quirkiness of her character I think. Which I mean in the most positive way!

Conclusion

I wasn’t expecting all too much, since I hardly ever read memoirs, but let me tell you I was stunned! Eve has such an empathetic way of telling her stories, I was able to connect and feel like I was a part of that story. It’s definitely a fast read, with some helpful advice along the way. Therefore Year Of No Clutter will receive 4 out of 5 stars.

Bad Little Girl by Frances Vick

Bad Little Girl by Frances Vick

An interesting book I was eager to read once I saw the lovely cover. Sometimes exhausting to read, a little disappointing in the end, but overall it had some good thrills.

To be honest I wanna say right away, most of the characters and their choices were quite annoying to me. It seemed so obvious to make the right choices, but the characters were so busy with themselves and their desires that it was hard for them to react to the situations. That made it exhausting to read, because the reader knew what was going to happen, at least to some extent.

Although Claire as one of the main characters went through an extreme development character-wise, it didn’t change much at all, but it did make her character be the hero in this book (for around 40 pages, until she was being annoying again). In a way I would say that the character’s personalities were created very well by the author in order to fit the narrative.

Overall, I enjoyed the little indecencies, the mystery and the thrill (or what was there of it). However, I would have loved a clearer ending, a bigger punishment, a better solution. Except for that, it is a solid 3 out of 5 stars and I am actually interested in other works by this author.

Bad Little Girl | Psychological Thriller | 325 pages | Published February 2017 | Goodreads

Keeping the Distance by Clarisse David

Keeping the Distance by Clarisse David

Melissa and Lance were so worth it. Keeping the Distance contains a decent high-quality amount of ship-able material. A love story I cannot wait for to be continued.

Some Information

Contemporary, Romance, Young Adult

Published in February 2017

Goodreads | Author’s website

★★★★✰

I received an eARC of this book in exchange for an honest review.

Synopsis from Goodreads

Seventeen-year-old Melissa wants to dye her hair cotton candy pink and focus on her ukulele instead of Physics. But she can’t. As the daughter of a Catholic school principal, living up to her model student image 24/7 is a must. Something’s about to give under all the pressure. She only hopes it isn’t her.

Getting involved with a troublemaking basketball player is the last possible thing she needs…

Lance is used to getting what he wants. With a pretty face he uses to full advantage and his role as co-captain of the basketball team, the easy way is the only way he’s ever known. Until the day he notices the prim Melissa he’s known forever is actually hot and decides to ask her out. He has no idea he’s about to learn the lesson of a lifetime.

Not getting what he wants might exactly be what he needs…

My Thoughts

Adorable, sweet, lovely and even a little heartbreaking. That is what Keeping the Distance is to me. I was immediately drawn into the story and plot of this book. At several different occasions I found myself swooning over Lance, Melissa, or both of them at the same time. Near the end of the book, the author had established a somewhat strong connection to the characters so that it made me feel with them. It never got boring.

Although family and friendship was well portrayed in contrast to some other contemporaries, Cam felt a wee bit flat and not as vivid as she could have been. She is a good friend to Melissa, the reader does see that, but there wasn’t quite enough happening involving her for her to really be the bestest of friends. Hopefully there will be more Cam quality time in the following books. Maybe even some Cam/Hunter or Cam/Jace time. But we’ll see; a girl can still dream though, right? Just believe me, Keeping the Distance contains a decent high-quality amount of ship-able material.

Additionally, the environment that is Iloilo is so fantastic and unique. It does add its part to the story.  You may call it ignorant, but I was unaware of the history of colonization of the Philippines. For a good third of the book I was wondering why the names were not at all what I was expecting and rather sounding Spanish. Until I did some research and read up on it, which makes a whole lot of sense now. So the book also offered knowledge I hadn’t possessed beforehand.

All in all, I am utterly excited for the second book in this series to be published. Clarisse’s writing can be described as sophisticated and lively. Keeping the Distance has everything a swoon-worthy romance novel needs: the amazing couple, the chill friends, this little bit of trouble, the cheesy pick-up lines (in a totally not serious way) and the deeply bonding moments between the two MCs. This series still has so much potential and could wind up to be one of my favorite series.


Have you read it? If so, what did you think of it?

Nina is Not OK by Shappi Khorsandi

Nina is Not OK by Shappi Khorsandi

Let me tell you, this book was a wild, amazing, emotional rollercoaster. I’m going to tell you right away it’s a 5/5 read – I’m speechless. Well, nearly.

In exchange for an honest review I received this eARC from the publisher on NetGalley. Thank you very much!

Nina does not have a drinking problem. She likes a drink, sure. But what 17-year-old doesn’t?

Nina’s mum isn’t so sure. But she’s busy with her new husband and five year old Katie. And Nina’s almost an adult after all.

And if Nina sometimes wakes up with little memory of what happened the night before, then her friends are all too happy to fill in the blanks. Nina’s drunken exploits are the stuff of college legend.

But then one dark Sunday morning, even her friends can’t help piece together Saturday night. All Nina feels is a deep sense of shame, that something very bad has happened to her…

Synopsis taken from Goodreads

Let’s get right into some of the main reasons why I loved this book to bits! Beware: Mild spoilers as well as sexual abuse and alcoholism ahead.

Although Nina is Not OK is a YA Contemporary, at that it was being very serious and mature. Right from the beginning I loved that the book did not mince matters. It was raw, edgy and, well, explicitly sexual. I was not expecting it to be this explicit, considering that Nina is only 17 at that point in the book. I’m not even judging, I simply expected this book to be for a younger audience.

Nina makes you feel something. Her feelings and thoughts and her suffering, but also happiness, are written in a way to make you feel it too. It is intense. Additionally, there is so much happening all the time. The reader is not stuck at one particular point in time, although Nina consistently keeps being reminded of that certain event from the beginning. Because so many aspects of Nina’s life are being visited throughout reading this book, it makes her feel like she is a real human being, a good friend. Her character development is clearly visible and especially at the end, she is obviously changed.

And Nina is not even the only amazing character. Let us briefly talk about Beth and Zoe. Well, you may think now that since this book has one amazing huge important bad-ass main character, the development for the other ones fell flat. But you guessed right: it didn’t. They felt equally real, went through tough stuff and ended up in different places.

Shappi Khorsandi has such an interesting way of writing. It is unexpected and entertaining. She manages to make Nina is Not OK so vivid by being equally plot- and character-driven. It left me speechless on a few occasions, but it made me want to keep reading it forever and ever.

Difficult Women

Difficult Women

Difficult Women | 272 pages | Expected Publication: 3rd of January | Short Stories, Fiction, Feminism Goodreads | Amazon

In exchange for an honest review I received this eARC from the publisher on NetGalley. Thank you very much!

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The first short story was chosen very well. It sets the atmosphere as somewhat dark and twisted, sad and difficult. Because of this interesting first story I was unable to put the book down at this point.

Gay’s writing is highly enjoyable and somewhat different from most authors I read. At least this is the feeling it conveys. The wording is simple, but also effective and strong.

Difficult Women, the short story that gave Gay’s book its name, is in contrast to the stories leading to it written differently and has a different vibe to it. In its prominent state, it connected to the other stories very well. All of the stories were unique and written distinctly.

The diversity in these short stories was refreshing and gave this book a more profound vibe.

Two or three of the short stories were not interesting to me at all. I wanted to skip these, but didn’t.  Awaiting a turn in events, which did happen at some point, saved them somehow.

Favorite Quotes

He used to think his wealth was a burden but quickly realized what he could get away with.

La Negra Blanca

[…] her services were in high demand because her clients liked having an English-speaking housekeeper as much as it made them uncomfortable to see a white woman doing the work of la gente.

Florida, 1217 Ridgewood RD Unit 23

Additionally, all of Difficult Woman, What a Crazy Woman Thinks About While Walking Down the Street.

Conclusion

Short stories about many different women, whom I would have liked to read more about. Nearly all of them kept my undivided attention, with most of them leaving me heartbroken at least in some way. I would recommend to anyone not being bothered with subtly being called out for sexist and racist behavior and explicit sex scenes. However – TW: rape, abuse/violence.

Short Series Review: Never Never by Colleen Hoover & Tarryn Fisher

Short Series Review: Never Never by Colleen Hoover & Tarryn Fisher

Never Never: Part One of Three

159 pages | Goodreads | Free on Amazon | ★★★★☆

Best friends since they could walk. In love since the age of fourteen.

Complete strangers since this morning.

He’ll do anything to remember. She’ll do anything to forget.

I started reading this with no real knowledge about what this is about.

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Great relationship between Silas and his brother, who was there for him in so many different moments.

A skittish and vague environment is being created, which makes it interesting and keeps the plot moving since lots of new things are happening to our characters and they see it in a more important light. In this, the reader was only introduced to the environment.

A lot of tension was created towards the end and was at its peak throughout the last few pages. An amazing mystery, which yet has to be solved. I have so many questions to be honest.

The characters were very judgmental and unlikable at times.

The reader only kept getting questions, but no answers at all.

The writing for the different chapters was a bit too similar. Although the reader was able to experience two points of view, they sounded very similar to me personally. Only their feelings make it able to differentiate between them at least a little.

Never Never: Part Two of Three

157 pages | Goodreads | ★★★☆☆

Silas races against time as more truths unravel, while others twist tighter together. And now, the stakes are higher as Silas’ control slips and others begin to point fingers. Charlie is in trouble and he must be the one to bridge the chasm between their past and their present. Because somewhere between I love yous and Never Nevers and Never Agains, a truth they can’t imagine, beckons to be found.

For this one, let’s start of with a short appreciation for the epigraph of this second part.

This book is for all of you who love happy ever afters and forgave me for the ending of part one. It was Tarryn’s fault. ~Colleen Hoover

This book is for everyone who thinks happy ever afters and Diet Pepsi are stupid. ~Tarryn Fisher

I found the second book a lot harder to get into. Usually, I am not the type for forgetting basic facts that you have acquired throughout a first book. It just annoys me to a point where I want to put everything down. It helped that Silas did prepare for a way not to forget everything.

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The mystery was building up, but offered at least some answers.

I liked the letters that they wrote to each other. This made for a quicker, easier reading experience.

Built up quite well for the final book, which has my hopes up high.

Too slow paced and just not fast enough for my liking.

Never Never: Part Three of Three

92 pages | Goodreads | ★★☆☆☆

Together, Silas Nash and Charlize Wynwood must look deeper into the past to find out who they were and who they want to be. With time ticking down, the couple are in a race to find the answers they need before they lose everything.

Can they regain what they once had? And will it restore who they once were?

Oh no, really? This is the end? Ugh.

There is literally no diversity whatsoever in any of these three books, at least I wasn’t aware of it being that predominant (or existing at all).

Conclusion

After reading very bad reviews for other books by Colleen Hoover, I am not very likely to pick up any book by her in the future. The only advantages I see here are that it’s short and somewhat cheap. A meh read, would not recommend, I guess.